update

Hi all!

No...I haven't disappeared off of the face of the earth. I promise...I'm still here...day by day...hour by hour...I'm still here. :) That sounded a little glum...well, I suppose that because today has been rough. But what's crazy is that I've had the best 2 weeks...despite John being gone. I have felt so encouraged in my spirit and excited about what God is doing and had sooo much grace for my children but it seems as though today...my cup is a bit empty.

We did receive some great news though - we WILL be moving to Denver, Colorado in April! I'm excited about this although I had definitly let myself dream a little dream...for a little too long...a dream of staying here with all my family and friends.

John brought back 2 magazines all about Denver for me to pour over. He also bought me the book Captivating by Eldridge and his wife...you know the guy who wrote "Wild At Heart" (the best book ever for christian men). I haven't been able to sit down and read it yet because pretty much as soon as John got back he was gone again.

Unfortunatly, there was a family member that passed away and the funeral was today so Curry and John were off to Nacona yesterday...his dirty clothes weren't even washed yet from the trip! I suppose that might have something to do with my empty cup...I was planning on relaxing and having help after a week of being a single mother. But...it doesn't matter...he'll be back today....and we can all spend time together and enjoy each others company and HELP MOMMY! :) hehehe...

I know I know...there are lots of single mothers out there who do it all the time and I ADMIRE you...SERIOUSLY! I have a new found respect of single mothers...especially those who have two or more children! It is not easy...but it is apart of our new life here in the states and while John was gone...I MISSED HIM TERRIBLY...but there was so much grace for everything that needed to be done. The first day I just determined in myself that...I will rejoice if unloading the car only takes 3 trips...so that way when it takes the normal 2 I won't be frustrated. :)

God is so incredible and the supplier of all that we need...so I know that in March...when John is gone for a whole month that it will be alright. John will be going with his father on a trip to multiple destinations in Malaysia and Thailand. Please keep us in your prayers during that time. It's going to be an incredible trip and we're praying that God moves mightily.

You know...I think one of the hardest things being back is that so many people don't know why we are back...and when I speak to them there is this look of disappointment on their faces. It's hard for me not to justify and try to defend why we are here because I have struggled in the past with what "men" think and needing approval from man more than from God. But I've found so much peace in being here...seeing God move and knowing that we are where we are supposed to be. I suppose it just makes me sad that they just assume the worst...that we gave up and came home.

In the light of eternity all that matters is that we are doing what God has told us to do and that we continue in that. On a really good note, I am going to be here during a very special time...perfect timing because two of my best friends in the world are getting married! I'm the maid of honor in one and a groomsmaid in the other. yeah...groomsmaid. :) Love it!

I'm really excited because I'm working on some ideas I have...I can't wait to show you some pictures once I've done one of them. All I need is one decently warm day - living in Texas that is bound to happen anyday now...the weather seems bi polar here...no joke. One day it's freezing and the next it's warm...

Thank you for stopping in...since returning not many of you are stopping by anymore...22 a day to 10...disappointed?