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Monday, February 16, 2009

Validation, Malaysia, Prayer Requests...

It's been a while since I've written. While God is still the Lord of my life I found myself struggling with a few of the things I thought I was over. We're here in America...and I can honestly say my heart is here now...it's here...content in what God has planned and as much as I hate to add a "but" to that...I must say...

BUT I struggle with viewing ourselves as missionaries to America. I know that's how we returned...and no we're not through a mission board but we're on God's mission board...and the big man said go back to America...but yet as a dear Pastor friend gave us their support for us as missionaries in America I felt as though we weren't qualified or worth them giving into us. Our dear family church, Liberty Lighthouse gives to us faithfully every month and this last time when I went to deposit the check I felt unworthiness set in and an overwhelming gratitude.

I suppose inside I struggle with feeling like we aren't giving up enough (our families are in the same country!, I can speak my heart and people understand, we have AIR CONDITIONING!!!)...or not doing enough to be qualified...but then reality hits me and we were never QUALIFIED to be missionaries. Matter of fact, many laughed in our faces and guessed how many months it would take before we returned from Thailand. 4 years later, here we are...more different that I could have ever imagined we would be with so many lessons under our belt I can't even count them.

Where do I get this idea that giving up things and being officially branded as a missionary makes you a missionary? Why does this pleague me so? What makes us missionaries? Missionaries are people who, with reckless abandon, leave behind any ambition of creating a life of stability for the assignment of our God to live to reach a people group. Dedicated to giving their lives to a God given mission...

I can stand before man and God and say that we are missionaries. Does that make us special? No...I believe that God would have us all to be missionaries...dedicated to our God given mission. As my blog numbers dwindle I realize how much I depended on knowing that people are reading...even though we're not in Thailand in a dangerous place anymore I still covet the fellowship and prayer that comes with it. I am also scared to admit to myself that maybe a bit of my man pleasing issues rises up because I'm not receiving as many hits...in turn causing me to feel less loved.
(I really loved this picture I found...It says: "Validation - pre-purchased ticket" think about that for a bit...)
Now, don't get me wrong...I love blogging...just for blogging. But at times I suppose I got some kind of validation for what we were doing from it...and as sad and sick as that is...it's true. Now, most of my validation came from the Lord but I see now in myself that a bit came from all the support we were receiving. But our validation does not come from man...but from our Lord. I thank God that I can share how I am feeling on my blog and express what's going on in my own heart and I thank God that my husband doesn't share my validation issues!! HAHA! He's always so strong and sure...like a strong oak tree with roots going down deep into Him.

We are excited about what God is doing!! I am soo happy to report that at this time God has moved Trent and Amy Pruett back to Texas. Yes! The SAME Trent and Amy Pruett that we worked with in Thailand are back in Texas!!! And even more amazing is that Trent and John are working together now at the office (www.jglm.org). We would have never imagined in a million years (ok MAYBE in a million years...that's a long time!) that we would be back in Texas together, much less, WORKING TOGETHER.

Curry, John and Trent (and Josiah) left today for a week long trip to Denver, Colorado! While I'm going to miss John and Josiah horribly I am soo excited for them because I know this trip is going to be a blast for them! They are holding a Divine Healing Technician Training in Denver, Colorado and they are all very excited about what God is going to do!

So while they are gone this week I'm so thankful that God is continuously working on me and allowing me to take him at his word and be more than a conquerer. With one less child I am praying that I am freed to do much more ministry this week.

I am going to have a lot of time to focus in on allowing God to refine me in the month of March! John will be gone for the entire month of March to Malaysia and Indonesia with his father, Curry Blake (www.jglm.org)!! He is leaving on his birthday (March 3) and will be arriving the day after his father's birthday(April 2)!!

Please be praying for them...there could be upwards of 80,000 people at some of these meetings!!! Malaysia is one of the closed countries of Asia...so it is an honor an a priviledge to share the gospel there. Please pray with me for these meetings and protection and boldness for our men and for me too...becuase let me just tell you...one week with out my husband is heart wrenching for me...so a month could be really rough but I'm asking God to help me be prepared and strong.

Another prayer request is that you be praying for our future home - wherever that may be. We still do not have many many things that we need to have a home (ex. beds, appliances...) and we will be moving from the missions house at the end of April.

Thank you for reading...

Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.

YOU SHALL LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, AND WITH ALL YOUR STRENGTH, AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND; AND YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF

8 comments:

Misty said...

I'm still reading Steph...and I love you. I have been very sick this week, and had sick kids before me...I'm hoping that it is thru us all and we can get together SOON!!! I miss you and you're only about 30 minutes away!!

Alexis Jacobs said...

Location isn't what makes you a missionary. Serving God and bringing people to Him is what my definition of a missionary is, and I believe God has a perfect plan for you guys here as missionaries. While the need isn't the same as in a country like Thailand or Malaysia, there are still thousands of unchurched here and those needing and craving to learn and hear about the word of God. You will change lives here. I just know it.

Anonymous said...

Phil 4:6 Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition (definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.
Phil 4:7 And God's peace [shall be yours, that tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace] which transcends all understanding shall garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
Phil 4:8 For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].

Steph...learn to know God's voice and you won't give ANY place to negitive idea's,troubling thoughts. As His word fills your heart there will be no place for anything but love, joy, peace!! AMEN GLORY!!!

Debbie said...

Stephanie - I saw sig line yesterday I thought you'd enjoy -
“Have patience with all things, but first with yourself. Never confuse your mistakes with your value as a human being.” Author Unknown

How's that for validation!!
Debbie

The Blakes said...

"Steph...learn to know God's voice and you won't give ANY place to negitive idea's,troubling thoughts. As His word fills your heart there will be no place for anything but love, joy, peace!! AMEN GLORY!!!"

AMEN Anonymous! That's exactly what I want! I hear God pretty good...it's that I don't stand up to the enemy and STOP listening to him at the same time!!! I want to be filled with His word and instead of giving the enemy a minute...taking aim and FIRE!! It seems like I'm fine with doing that with everything except for when he attacks me personally. And a lot of it is not giving God all of my mind...my patterns of thought regarding myself are not inline with God's word and I know it. Thank you for your encouraging words...that is exactly what I want!

The Pruett Family, written by Amy said...

Hey Steph :) I hear you! 100% hear you!!!! Thank you for writing this! And as for your future home, know that our home is always open to your family.

pope gan prung nee!

The Garsees in Thailand said...

hey girl! i love you and i love reading your blog! i'm so proud of you and John! you are doing God's work and that really means something. No matter what the change or the cost or what it looks like to man, you're following the orders your Commander has given you and that's important. we love you and are with you in spirit and in thought.

also, how can i check to see how many people read my blog? i didn't know you could do that.....

love you girl

The Garsees in Thailand said...

hey girl! i love you and i love reading your blog! i'm so proud of you and John! you are doing God's work and that really means something. No matter what the change or the cost or what it looks like to man, you're following the orders your Commander has given you and that's important. we love you and are with you in spirit and in thought.

also, how can i check to see how many people read my blog? i didn't know you could do that.....

love you girl